Thanks. He didn’t make me stray - I did it myself. I will take the blame for that. It’s kind of like how my family wants to blame the guy I’ve been dating for my drinking. It wasn’t his fault either. He was as just as much in the dark about it as they were. I am learning to take responsibility for all of my actions. The good and the bad. I have a journal. It’s from three years ago and Ive been reading over it to give myself good pointers (again). I’m not going from memory so I am pretending I know nothing and starting from scratch.