. . . the pain of losing a child. Can't even begin. Some people do seem to have greater resilency re: loss; I'm not one of those.

At my worst, I have fallen onto my knees and asked god simply to help me. Please help me. No requests of how, just to help. Without exception, I would be lifted. These are my miracles in life . . . when I can (without seeming cause) just go into a different space.

I have cried at least one river.

My prayers are with you. I will remember you tonight and send healing energies your way.