Well, I'm suprised. I know when the time comes i'm going to be reluctant to go. Its not just about when you die its about how you die. How would you like to die for 5 years while cancer slowly eats at your lungs and finaly drown in your on bodily fluids, or maybe not die at all. They may remove your voice box so you can sing christmas carols from a battery operated hand-held voice box! Then you can look back and realize how easy it was to just quit, and how hard your making it now. The worst thing that could happen isnt always death! I hope i dont sound too rough but frankly from reading alot of your entries I think your too tough to give up now and imagine if you were successful what an acomplishment that would be! You would be part of a few strong quitters instead of the many who let a chemical kick there
Stick with it, Youll be glad you did!
Scott