I feel so so so sick. Today is my 3rd day on nicotine patches, and i want cigarettes so bad that at times i'm literally crying, and finally, after almost 3 months of error free LCing, i went out and bought a disgusting pile of sugary crap and ate it all. Not because i wanted carbs, but because i wanted cigarettes. I know my priority right now should be kicking the cigarettes, not flawless LCing, but I'm still disappointed in myself and i physically and mentally and emotionally feel like crap now, and im not thinking straight. Can somebody explain myself to me right now?

All those pamphlets and websites talk so optimistically about 'you can do it!', and it's frankly bull****. Not smoking after the type of relationship i had with cigarettes is unexplainably hard, and i keep crying and everything just sucks right now.

What im asking for is this; i cant think straight right now. Can somebody give me some perspective please?