Wow, what a story! It really sounds to me like even aside from the emotional pain you must have some genetic predisposition to being emotionally-affected by incoming carbs. You've had a heck of a life! What a challenge. I really admire that you were able to decide what you wanted to be and become it.

I also admire your efforts toward exercise, and proactively approaching the details of your plan - like looking for the problem that turned out to be the sweetener, and using the treadmill every day.

I'm glad you found the low carb forum, and I'm glad I found it and found you. It really is inspirational. Thanks for that.
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