Bah! What a mess I've created. One extreme to another with no middle ground I can count on to keep me even.

Thanks for all the posts guys, I signed up for an eating disorder group. Putting myself around others with the same problem will at least help me feel like I'm not a complete nut. I know food is not the problem as much as my sate of mind is.

I've decided to eat towards health and well being for now, a whole food diet of the sorts. Now I just have to get myself to start eating enough which has been a real struggle .

FYI on the refeed guys. When you deplete your body to the point where you actually notice bone loss you can eat *HUGE* amounts of food and gain *VERY* small amounts of fat. I doubt this would be the case if you were eating straight dominos, but I find that when my body is in a starved state I crave heavy starches and lean meat, and a LOT of it!!