A success
 

Even though I have managed to lose weight well, I still struggle with certain food demons. I just assume I will for the rest of my life. And usually once I gie in to a demon, I go into a self-hating free for all that can las a couple of days before I snap out of it. Yesterday, was a losing struggle, but I am celebrating today because I managed to re-take control.

I was hungry all day yesterday. I really think it is hormonal. I am in perimenopause, and the hot flashes, mood swings and food cravings are driving me mad. So, I ended up having a completely unplanned cupcake. Followed by a bag of chocolate covered peanuts. On the way home, I pulled into sonic for a milkshake, to continue the binge, since it had started. But then something strange happened.

I cancelled my shake and drove away empty handed. And I didn't stop for ice cream and chocolate anywhere, either. When I got home, I wasn't really hungry, so I drank water, and some hot tea. I didn't spend the night digging through cupboards. I didn't eat any more off plan foods. And I didn't tell myself, "Well, since you've blown it, just get it all out of your system." Instead, I simply stopped.

This morning, I got up like usual, went to the gym like usual, ate eggs after working out, like usual. I didn't tell myself that since I was "bad" yetserday, I might as well have a muffin/french toaste/frappucino/coffee cake for breakfast and simply start over on Monday. I didn't give myself permission to skip the gym, since I am such a loser anyway. I didn't lie to myself about what I had eaten yesterday. And I didn't give that to myself as an excuse to keep making bad choices today.

For me, that is progress worth celebrating.

That's huge! Congratulations and well done. :)

great job!!!

Thats an excellent observation about your own behavior! Now that you've done it once and acknowledged it, you'll be able to do it again next time!! :cool:

Good job!!! :thup:

Thanks, guys.

I survived lunch temptations, which were strong, since it is the last Friday of the summer (before school starts back) and everyone is going out for pub food (jalapneo chili cheese fries were calling my name). But I had a bunless burger and some mixed broc/cauli with melted cheese and a few almonds.

Judy, I like what you said about next time. I actually may be able to resist or minimize next time and the time after that. That's actually very encouraging to think about.

In my experience, when we are able to get to that level of observation of our own behaviors is actually when we can begin the process of changing them.
Until then, I wasn't able to see the road to change as I was unable to see myself at all. :)

HUGE! HUGE! HUGE!

Each time it becomes easier and easier and you can stop the cycle before it even stops.


"We may not have the power to stop, but we do have the power not to start"

In this case, you were able to put the brakes on!

Incredibly good news! I used to do the same thing; and it doesn't make any sense.

We never say, "Oh, I spent more than I had planned to. Guess I'll bet the rent money on a horse."

This. is. awesome.

Every action first starts as a though in our heads. We just need to try and stop them while they are still thoughts and don't take that action the way you did with the shake. Great job!